You said, I don’t fit in to your school regimen, your narrow religion. I don't care for your gender rules, your proper taste and good sense, your money prerogative, and oh by the way I see your racism, your sexism, your brutality. You said, let’s taste joy. Let’s make a new thing. Let’s say out … Continue reading Before You Go →

Once upon a time there lived two fairy princesses that were created by a commune of ancient fairies. It was a terrible commune. No one was in charge, and decades would go by without anyone planting crops because everyone was too busy singing and dancing. Nevertheless, they were filled with love and good intentions, and … Continue reading A Fractured Fairy Tale →

Twelve years ago, I stood in front of the cleaning supply section at a Safeway in Guerneville, California, frozen. “You’re looking for the magic wand. It’s not here,” my brother-in-law Scott said gently. We were preparing to go into my mom’s house. Was it twelve years ago? Were we moving her stuff to a new … Continue reading Target, Kaiser, and Man’s Search for Meaning →

It flew! This month, I gained no pounds, I lost no pounds, but even though the scale stood still, everything else seemed to be moving. A social event that filled my emotional brain with anticipation and some anxiety for several weeks leading up to it was, just as my logical brain predicted, wonderful in ways … Continue reading March didn’t march →

As predicted, I was up almost a pound last week. That was actually not too bad. Sorry, everyone, for coming into Weight Watchers naked but I just couldn't afford to weigh my clothes. I'm already behind in my planning for the week, which excites Perfectionist Me who likes to throw herself on the nearest divan … Continue reading Little successes, little goals →

I will not focus on one week. I will not focus on one week. I will not focus on one week. Says the person who definitely did not lose "weight" this week. It's possible I lost fat but, who knows. Today I finally used the fat-o-meter my boyfriend left lying around: 30.1% However, I've been … Continue reading Gird yer loins, it’s almost weigh-in day →

One thing I'm looking forward to is looking forward to getting dressed each day. There was a time when it was fun, or at least not stressful. In the last couple years, I've spent as little time as possible thinking about clothes, buying clothes, or looking at clothes once I've put them on. And I … Continue reading Getting dressed →